when can you say you had enough?

when can you say you had enough?

enough of all the fights and squabbles...

enough of all the tears and heartaches...

enough of all the "sorry"s and "i didn't mean it"s...

well...

i'm tired of all the fights and squabbles...

i'm tired of all the tears and heartaches...

i'm tired of all the "sorry"s and "i didn't mean it"s


i'm tired of keeping it all inside me...

lost & found

i was hurt
alone and sad
my heart was cursed
lost and mad

then you came
you found my heart
the tears ceased
the pain now gone

for you loved
you cherished my heart
sharing your heart with my own
opening my heart once more

my heart was once lost
but now found
thanks to you
i saw true love

one week break

HELLO! It's me again... yes I'm still alive...hehehe
I'm back home for my one week break from the review. However, I still need to do some catching up with my reading. So, yes, you guessed it right. Books are still piled on my desk. Call me crazy but studying can be really addicting. It's quite fun when you get the hang of it.hehehe
Maybe my one week break isn't really a break after all.

tell me where it hurts...

it breaks my heart to see you this way. i think of ways to ease your pain. but then i know i could never make it go away. i know deep down inside there's this person who's constantly in your mind.

you only see her. her face. her smile. you only hear her. her voice. her laughter. the thought of her makes you happy, crazy and sad all at the same time.

talk to me. i'll be here to listen. i'll be here to cheer you up. i'll be here for ...

i only see you. your face. your smile. i only hear you. your voice. your laughter. your corny jokes. the very thought of you makes me happy and crazy at the same time.

now you're heartbroken and sad, yet, you're still in love.

me?

i'm heartbroken and sad, yet, still in love with you... falling and falling over and over again.

... let me love all of the hurt away.

Finally

hey guys! i'm back!
though i may not have my own connection it's alright...hehehe it has been like almost a week now...the longest time i've been offline...haayz
i'm right here in Cebu starting my review. i'll update you guys with the events later on coz i already made a blog entry for this one but just left it at home.
anyway, i can't stay for long. i still need to catch up with my reading...

now on to Frenzel... *concentrates* hehehe

hinugyaw

"Hinugyaw" a local term that means rejoicing/revelry.

Last weekend, I, along with some friends, was invited to Hinigaran. They were celebrating the Hinugyaw Festival that would mean a grand parade, colorful streetdancing, welcoming homes, a table full of mouthwatering food, and partying 'til the break of day.

Here are some pictures taken during our stay there.

street dancing



tin-tin and me


friends


nice view of the sunset


jaja feeling the mood...lol


the shades of paradiso


tin and me again in paradiso




stargazing on the hill




I didn't know that these kind of events could be heaps of fun. I hope I get to go there again next year. Hey Ja, don't forget that I'm just here aight, lol.




how can i?

you asked me out
at first i hesitated
you gave me that smile
i just can't resist

i returned your smile
however, you frowned
you noticed it
my smile didn't reach my eyes

"what's the matter?
why is my baby sad?
did someone make you feel bad?"
you kept on probing

i looked at you
straight in the eye
i looked at you
but i can't say it out loud

you looked back
your gaze questioning
you gave me a hug
and gave me a kiss

how can i
tell you what it is i'm feeling?
how can i
when you're being like this?

how can i
tell you about the pain deep inside?
how can i
tell you my friend?

...when i know it would be the end.

Ten Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me,
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh,
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it that you're not around,
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

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I know this one's old but I like this poem. I can relate with this. It's difficult when you like someone. You try your hardest to find the faults in him just to block that confusing feeling. However, in the end you just realize that those things that you hate about him are the very things that you like about him. Despite all the pain that he brings you, it's still those things that makes you fall over and over again.

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Despite the hurt deep within
It’s still his smile I have seen

Yes, you still have that effect on me. I'm hurting deep within and yet I can't tell you how much it hurts. It pains me to listen to you talk about her. I hear the excitement in your voice when you mention her name. I see the gleam in your eyes and that hidden smile when you come face to face with her.

But why me? Why do this to me? Do you know that you are making things difficult for me? I'm trying my very best to let you go... but then when I think that I'm ready to do it you'd just make my resolve just crumble away. You wrap your arms around me and say sweet nothings. You cuddle up close to me and hold me as if it's just natural thing to do.

I know that you care for me, that you love me. I wonder if you really see me though. Yes, you love me... yes you do...the kind of love a brother would give to a sister... the kind of love a best friend would give.

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Hitting the Books

I started reviewing for the board exams (to think that it's kinda early to do that... hehe) this week. Call me weird for hitting the books instead of the oh so inviting waves at the beach but hey I just have to. I have been busying myself getting copies of books that I think I will need for the next months... yeah it's quite a long review which would start last week of May til I take the exam on November. You're thinking torture right? Yeah me, too. haha

Oh well... gotta get back to reading my favorite book... Electronic Communications Systems: Fundamentals Through Advanced by my favorite author Wayne Tomasi.

I'm such a nerd...haha

The Phone Call

Sean: Hi Nicki! How have you been?

Nicki: Fine, just fine. Missed me?

Sean: (laughs) Sure did. What have you been up to?

Nicki: Nothing much… so when did you arrive?

Sean: Just yesterday. However, I have to get back there today.

Nicki: Oh, is that so? So when are you comin’ back?

Sean: Maybe this Saturday… not so sure.

Nicki: Ok… (smiles to herself) The gang’s planning to have a get-together.

Sean: Really? Just tell me where and maybe I can come or something. (laughs). Oh yeah. Maybe the band’s pushing through with the event this May.

Nicki: Oh… but I think I can’t join you guys. I haven’t been contributing much.

Sean: Me too. I talked to Sam the other day and she said that maybe the old members would not join.

Nicki: Ah… okay… wait… you talked with whom? Samantha?

Sean: Uhhh… (uneasy)

Nicki: (laughs) Who was it? Samantha?

Sean: Uhhh… why are you laughing? (laughs too)

Nicki: Wait… wait… is there something going on that I don’t know? hmmm

Sean: Uhhh… yeah… you know?

Nicki: What Sean? I don’t know?

Sean: You know?

Nicki: You like her?

Sean: Uhm-hum… Oh man! (laughs) Just ask Mandy ‘bout it. She knows…(laughs)

Nicki: Oh… (laughs uncomfortably)… Gotta go now…

Sean: Ok… you, take care.

Nicki: Yeah… you too…

Sean: Bye.

Nicki: (hangs up) yeah…goodbye…(and tears start to roll down her cheeks)

Love and Friendship

It’s perfectly clear to me
That him loving me would never be
There was just friendship left to offer
But I didn’t accept it and chose to suffer

Each night I tossed and turned
With strained tears my eyes burned
With my heart broken and torn
There I was all alone

I made myself believe that I was alright
That I should not be so uptight
But then I was drowning inside
And it just couldn’t be set aside

I wanted to let it all out
What the pain and the tears are all about
I wanted him to know
That all of it was not for show

What I felt for him was real
That for no one else I could possibly feel
That I tried to forget him
But yet how difficult it seemed

My love for him is so strong
That still in him I found no wrong
Despite the hurt deep within
It’s still his smile I have seen

Now tell me if this is wrong
To keep this love burning for so long
Isn’t it just the way that’s right
To stand for my love and fight?

But then he never saw it that way
And I was helpless with nothing left to say
I miss him so fierce
That I could cry a million tears

I decided to accept defeat
Thinking that our hearts would never meet
Maybe indeed we’re destined to be friends
And now I hope with this the pain ends.

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+ You're a pro at going with the flowYou love to kick back and take in everything life has to offerA total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's doneYou're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

f.r.i.e.n.d.s.

Oh what a day it has been. Exams...it was hell.... augh! -__-
Good thing, I've got my friends...haha. Look at us goof around.


in the library >>>> supposed to be studying! ^_^
[L-R: Maan, Maybe, Tin2, Jaja, and me]



along solomon hall >>>> still goofing around

and of course in class >>> go figure... -___-

[Jaja and Maan with Cheryl and Pearl]


[Jaja, Ron and Ronald being gross...ewww :P]


[Matthew and Ryan with nothing better to do. Look at Matt go crazy... -__-]

Well, what more can I ask for? I've got friends to entertain and amuse me. What a Kodak moment...lolz :D

Are You a Nerd?

oh-kay proof of my nerdy existence.... well at least 59% of the test takers are nerdier than me, lolz... :D

Will You Ever Know

Currently listening to: You Don't Know My Name -- Alicia Keys

I started the day sad and distraught. I couldn't get you out of my mind. We see each other and yet it seems like you don't see me at all. Not even a smile or even a glance my way. I see you smiling and laughing with your friends. I smile to myself, imagining you smiling and laughing with me. Then I wake up from my reverie and realize that you're not with me. Will you ever know how I feel? Will you ever see me as I see you?

++++++-----++++++

Baby, baby, Baby
From the day I saw you
Really, really wanted to catch your eye
Somethin' special bout' you
I must really like you
'Cause not a lot of guys are worth my time
Oh baby, baby, baby
It's getting kind of crazy
'Cause you are taking over my mind
(Chorus)
And it feels like oooooh
You Don't know my name
I swear, it feels like ooooooh
You Don't know my name
(round and round and round we go,will you ever know)
Oh! Baby, baby, baby
I see us on our first date
Doing everything that makes me smile
When we had our first kiss
It happened on a Thursday
ooh it set my soul on fire
oooh Baby, baby, baby
I can't wait for the first time
My imagination's running wild
(Chorus)
It feels like oooooh
You Don't Know My Name
And I swear it Baby, it feels like ooooooh
You Don't Know My name
(Round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
I'm sayin, he don't even know what he's doin to me
Got me feelin all crazy inside
I'm feelin like, Oh!
Doing nothing I've ever done, for anyone's attention
Take notice of what's in front of me
'Cause did I mention (oh!) You bout' to miss a good thing
And you'll never know how good it feels
To have, all my affection
And you'll never get a chance to experience, my lovin (oh!)
'Cause my lovin feels like
(Chorus)
oooooh
You Don't Know my name
And I swear it feels like
oooooooh
You Don't my name
Will you ever know it?
I'm going to have to go ahead and just call this boy
Hello, can I speak to..to Michael
Oh hey, how ya' doin'?
I feel kinda' silly doin' this, but uh
This is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th and Lennox
(Chuckle) you know the one with the braids?
Yeah
Well I see you on Wednesday's, all the time
You come on every Wednesday on your lunch break I think
You always order the special, with the hot chocolate
Look man I mean, I know girls don't usually do this
But I was wonderin'
if maybe we could get together outside the restaurant one day
You know, 'cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes
(Chuckle) Wait a minute, my cell phones breakin' up
Can you hear me now?
yeah, so what day did you say?
Oh, Thursday's perfect
(Chorus)
And it feels like oooohhh
You Don't Know My name
And I swear on my mother and father it feels like
oooooooh
oooooooh
oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Will you ever know?

Firsts...

Currently listening to: Mozart's Bassoon (K191)

We always have firsts... first baby steps, first word, first love (oing! :D lolz), and lots more. Well this is a first... first post (haha). I really don't know what to write down. Actually, I'm supposed to be studying for a quiz right now but as you can see I just can't concentrate on it.

Anyway, last weekend I got to attend a job hiring seminar (if you could call it that). The company's really cool and very inviting. I hope I'd get to work there.

Speaking of work... I better get back to working on my notes... lolz. :D

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