Love and Friendship

It’s perfectly clear to me
That him loving me would never be
There was just friendship left to offer
But I didn’t accept it and chose to suffer

Each night I tossed and turned
With strained tears my eyes burned
With my heart broken and torn
There I was all alone

I made myself believe that I was alright
That I should not be so uptight
But then I was drowning inside
And it just couldn’t be set aside

I wanted to let it all out
What the pain and the tears are all about
I wanted him to know
That all of it was not for show

What I felt for him was real
That for no one else I could possibly feel
That I tried to forget him
But yet how difficult it seemed

My love for him is so strong
That still in him I found no wrong
Despite the hurt deep within
It’s still his smile I have seen

Now tell me if this is wrong
To keep this love burning for so long
Isn’t it just the way that’s right
To stand for my love and fight?

But then he never saw it that way
And I was helpless with nothing left to say
I miss him so fierce
That I could cry a million tears

I decided to accept defeat
Thinking that our hearts would never meet
Maybe indeed we’re destined to be friends
And now I hope with this the pain ends.