how can i?

you asked me out
at first i hesitated
you gave me that smile
i just can't resist

i returned your smile
however, you frowned
you noticed it
my smile didn't reach my eyes

"what's the matter?
why is my baby sad?
did someone make you feel bad?"
you kept on probing

i looked at you
straight in the eye
i looked at you
but i can't say it out loud

you looked back
your gaze questioning
you gave me a hug
and gave me a kiss

how can i
tell you what it is i'm feeling?
how can i
when you're being like this?

how can i
tell you about the pain deep inside?
how can i
tell you my friend?

...when i know it would be the end.